Saturday, November 17, 2007

hahas...todae,i'm gonna blog bout 3 speacial event....

1ST: HAPPY BIRTHDAE DAD

so todae's my dad's birthdae...though i noe he's not goin to read tis, but i just type...

happy birthdae dad...i noe u are goin one year nearer to death...no offence...but...wait...let's talk bout your negative side...i noe, u have a veri bad kind of temper...tts y my mum sometimes could not stand u...i noe tt your employees will not listen to u...i noe tt u are low educated...i noe tt u make ppl cannot tahan u until shout back at u...i noe tt u always wanted to cry but did not...i noe wad u did outside the family...ok, enough.....but, u will nvr throw your temper at me and sis...u will nvr cry in front of us...u will give us the best...u wun accept any compliment made by us, instead nag at us...but i noe u feel happy inside...i noe u feel stress being in the company cause the boss is my mum's bro...i noe tt he sometimes threaten u to treat my mum better...i noe tt u cry to mum...i noe tt u cry to mum when grandmum pass away...i noe u cry at the dinning table at midnight when sis shouted at you...i noe u feel veri sad and stress inside, and like to nag at us until we cannot tahan.........but u noe, i always remain silent at your naggin though my fist is ready to punch...i always make and effort to laugh wif u...i always make my sis understand u...i always tried to make time to go out wif u...i always tried to compliment u though i always got scoldin in the end...i just wan u to noe tt...no matter wad mum said to you, wad sis said to u, or wad i said to u tt are unpleasent..........we always love and care your u...cause...i'm your son? hahas

2ND: MY HESITATION FOR U

todae...i really cannot control already...i need advice...i really dunno wad to do........u see...it started wif gettin to noe u...then i became interested...then i added u one of the three gals....i always tot it is impossible for us...u are the fourth gal...rmb last time i say we are friends for the fourth gal...its impossible for us......but todae.....everythin i do....everywhere i go....even when i pray at the church todae...i even pray for us to be closer...i even tear a little when i tot of u leavin me one dae...i even think bout u when i am eating wif my family...even now...but u noe wad's stoppin me........see...

i used to love someone in pri sch....and when we graduated, she left me and i noe wad love first time means...and when i went to sec sch life...i met another gal, and not wantin to lose her, i stead wif her...but in the end, i found out tt we were not meant to be together...and broke up, thus hurtin her badly...i promise myself nvr to let another gal tear after pri sch incident...i promise not to let an opportunity pass by...not to have a second regret in life...but...i tot so when i have my first stead...but it didn't end up well, and yet let another gal tear...and so tis is the delima...shld i ask u...shld i tell u my feelin...yet i dunno wad is love or puppy love...yet i'm afraid of hurtin u...and yet i dun wan to let tis opportunity pass...yet i wan to be wif u...and yet i'm afraid i will leave u one dae...yet i'm afraid to find out u are not the one...yet i'm afraid of telin u ' i love u forever'...i'm afraid of everythin...i'm useless...i'm confuse...i'm...i'm sori...for not knowing whether to love u...guess i will nvr have the courage...guess i'll only wait until i lose u be4 i know whether u are the one...tis sucks man, ahhas...

cause todae really makes me think alot, especially durin the prayers when they say

Eccl. 11:4 (TLB) " if u wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done."

am i waitin for the perfect moment be4 i tell u?

3RD: TODAE CHURCH AT EXPO

I tell u...its fantastic!!!! eh, we have to go in early to get better seats...but still, we could not get the front seats though we came one hr earlier....hahas, at singapore expo there...then i saw my pri sch friend, than saw kian how there...haahas...

then todae got tanjin, cui lan, xiaohui, ruiling, and jerry go wif me, then nevin user but nvr see him...then we started by singing songs!!! pls lor, its like ROcK song and the place like concert hall sia...so damn cold...and everyone dress veri formal sia!!! veri cool...and fun.....then got videos and more song...then got veri inspirationing speeches again...then got a painter to paint the picture 'the last supper' wif acrylic paint, which means there is no detailed faces, nose, eyes...sth like abstract art...its funny at times cause he knows how to crack joke, hahas...then after tt they sing again!!! damn nice...everythin...then they also made me go in front with the newcomers to be altered...which means to be saved i think...i heard tt all but xiaohui haven't been altered...ahhas, faster la...then after tt i went meet my parents to eat...dad's birthdae

i'm cyclops....lol
my outfit todae...

kk, bb, everythin always will turn out just fine...

i have no idea...wad to do...

pls, guide me along god...amen...

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